is there anything left i need to apologize for and correct myself on? i don't want to log out until i'm on the same page as everyone else, and i wouldn't be surprised if there's a bunch of other stuff i've done that i didn't know wasn't okay

me dealing with a little stress is absolutely worth making sure people i've hurt get an apology and that i know what i've done wrong so i don't repeat it. please don't worry about me right now. i'm sorry if it's stressful to watch, but i just want to do the right things.

sure! i gave some basic context here nitter.cc/ghost_and_pals/s… , but to elaborate further the scenario wasn't going to be romanticized or glorified (as abuse should never be done). however, i ended up realizing the topic wasn't being handled with as much weight as it should've

been either, and that the role-switch was unnecessary and could have been interpreted as romanticism without enough context. this is why i dropped the idea so quickly, and i'm absolutely sorry to anyone who saw it without context and was hurt as a result.

this being said, i'm also guilty of having said or believed things that were stigmatic towards cluster-Bs, particularly a strong association with narcissism as an inherently negative trait. i want to apologize to everyone who was hurt by this, and i strongly encourage anyone

guys idk how many times i have to say it but no personality disorder inherently causes someone to be abusive, and regardless of which personality disorder it is everyone with one is deserving of recovery and support

this especially goes for cluster-bs (hpd, npd, bpd and aspd) because they get the worst rep out of the bunch. even if there are abusers out there who do have cluster bs, that doesn't mean their mental illness 100% caused them to be abusive. i could have INFLUENCED the -

- abusive behavior: for example, i'll speak on bpd since it's the only cluster b i have - if i were to guilt and threaten someone into staying in a friendship with me. that would be *influenced* by my symptoms of bpd, but *i am still responsible for having hurt someone* and -

- my bpd is not the cause of that behavior. does that make sense? anyways stop treating people with personality disorders, esp cluster bs, like shit on the sole basis that they have a personality disorder

ALSO!! even if you do abuse someone, regardless of what influenced your behavior, *you still deserve to get help and recover from your own struggles and trauma*. the people you hurt may not forgive you, that's their choice, but that doesn't mean you don't deserve to -

- help yourself become a better person or that you deserve to suffer through whatever pain your mental illnesses are causing you. this is coming from someone who was abused and hasn't forgiven their abuser, if that means anything

please just withdraw your support from me by not consuming my content at all, because by pirating it it kinda says my music is worth the attention but i'm not worth getting help. again pleeeeease tell me if that's a shitty take i will gladly retract it if so, again people are -